Just a thought, guys…
Lucky me. I just woke up from a nightmare. All the cousin kids are here, sleep over down stairs. Uncle B and Aunt S are in town.
Anyway, recently I haven’t been able to stop thinking about nature could decide to take me at any moment. Statistically, probably by car crash. It could decide to take any of us at any time. By deciding, I mean nature is totally random. There is no rhyme or reason to any of this. People are insane. Animals are insane. They both attack for no reason sometimes. I always carry a gun simply because you never know when you’re going to encounter something or somebody that wants to kill you for no reason. Nature is brutal. Animals have no remorse or sympathy for killing the weak.
I’ve seen news stories, and that’s probably my main problem. I watch too much news. But, I’ve seen news stories of a random tree branch falling on a playground at a random school. Lands on a kid’s head. Coma for a month. Saw another article today, mother left her 18 month old baby in her crib and went a 10 day vacation to Puerto Rico. Baby was covered in urine and shit. Died of dehydration and starvation.
People kill each other by accident and on purpose by the millions each year. Cops get shot every day. Stores get robbed. My Uncle Jeffrey drowned in college. Nikki’s 2yo niece drowned in a pool. I’ve had a friend commit suicide. I’ve had half a dozen friends die on motorcycles. All my cousins and aunts and uncles and parents and grandparents are all dead or are dying one by one. Whether they are older than me or not. As I reach my mid-life crisis, I realize that none of us are going to get out of this life alive.
Last week, I had a co-worker named Brad at the state of Florida die of cancer at age 61. He’d been working for 40 years and hadn’t even retired. All that saving money and vacation days for nothing.
I grew up with my cousin Elizabeth O., and she’s got a daughter now named Sunley who’s probably six or eight. Sunley was born with a heart condition, and they didn’t expect her to live this long. It’s not exactly easy to find a heart transplant donor for a 6yo.
The anxiety of knowing that death is random and could happen to any of us at any time is almost paralyzing.
I just want you guys to know that if I die, or mom, or either of you kids die growing up, that we had it the easiest. What I mean is, take a small amount of comfort knowing that when you die, you don’t have to mourn the dead. You’re just dead. The survivors are the ones that have to cry about it for the rest of their lives. I also want you to realize, because I’ve asked myself this question a million times, that it doesn’t happen for a reason. I’ve thought, why me? Why did it have to be my friend that crashes or grandparent that got Covid and died? Why did my mom or dad have to be the one that dies in a car crash? Why does it have to be me that grows up without a dad?
There is no fucking reason. It’s all random. That’s the scariest part of all. Therefore, you’ve got to stay vigilant to give yourself and your family a fighting chance at the very least. Learn how to fight. Learn how to kill. Learn how to be a first responder. Learn first aid. Learn how to keep yourself and your family alive. Family is the most valuable thing in the world. That and time.
You can’t afford to be unprepared for the ONE TIME in your life that you’re literally fighting for your life or the life of a family member. If you’re fighting for your life more than once in a lifetime, you must really like to party.